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Thursday, March 29, 2012

I'm a little proud of myself...

This week is wonky, scheduling wise.

I usually go to the gym Mon.-Wed.-Fri., but I had/have things planned Wed. and Fri. this week.  And today (Thurs.), too.

So, I didn't make it yesterday, and I won't tomorrow either (I'll be out of town).

But today, after spending the day with a friend and getting home around 8- I went to the gym!

I got my whole workout in.

Like I said, kinda proud of myself right now.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

I get to go buy smaller pants today.

Yeah, the title about covers it.  Hell yeah.


The new pants are TWO sizes smaller than the old ones!!!  And... AND!  Enough things fit that I had to pick and choose what I wanted to buy!!!  Holy shit, that has not happened in a looonngggg while!

This was a pretty damn good day.

Monday, March 26, 2012

Super Exciting Weigh-in


That's EIGHT POINT TWO POUNDS this week!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was really excited to pass the official 25 pounds lost mark (that would've been 268)- and not only did I hit that, but I blew past it and past the official THIRTY mark (at 263).  Holy crapballs!  I am beyond happy right now.

I weighed myself multiple times just to see if it was a fluke, but those only fluctuated .2 (I was 261 even twice, but I took the higher one)!

Whoa, talk about making up for last week!

I expect to lose nothing again next week, since my body seems to let go of weight in two week cycles, but that's totally ok so long as the overall trend is down.

I'm a little scared to enter the change in my calorie tracker, though.  It's going to take away soo many calories (ok, like, 50... but that's a lot when you're eating around 1400, lol).  Eek, hold me, I'm scared.

Ok, off to eat something and then hit the gym!!  Keep going everyone- we can all do this!!!!!

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Frustration Trigger

So, I think I may have figured out why I always seem to stall around 25 pounds lost (Aka: around 265lbs.  Seriously, I've done it at least twice already, and I'm super frustrated right now.).

I look like hell.


Not my body itself, mind you (you know, the important part)- but my clothes.

I'm at that weird in-between stage where clothes from a few weeks ago are way too big (and look awful), but the next size down is still just the tiniest bit too small (and make me look like a stuffed sausage).

My Bestie and I are going out for out monthly girls night tonight and I have been through almost everything in my freaking closet trying to find something to wear.

I'm working so hard, and it's so goddamn frustrating to want to celebrate what I've accomplished, but feel like I look like absolute shit.

And so the triggers circle.  I'm getting so angry in the moment that I'm losing sight of the big picture.  I guess I've done this every time.  Had the emotions kick on and started eating.

I'm glad I'm noticing it.  I'm not giving in this time.

But damnit- is it so much to ask to feel like I look hot for once?!  Shit!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

At the gym today...

I'm not sure I really hit it hard enough...

I'm a sweaty sexy (nope, right the first time) sweaty beast!
Mind you, this is after 'drying off' with the windows all open on the 15 minute drive home.

Dear mother of holy crap, I hurt everywhere.  Someone please kill me.  Or at least bring me dinner because I'm too tired to make it.

Monday, March 19, 2012

Yet Another Weigh-in


That's .4 lbs this week.  

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little upset it wasn't more, but I get why.  I mean, I lost 5 lbs last week- so if I average the two I'm still right around 2.5 a week, which is great... though my aim is 3... whatever.  I wasn't perfect with my eating this week (and I didn't have that whole 'flu' advantage that I had last week... that probably helped, lol.), so that's a small part of it.  I think part of my lack of loss is also that I have some muscle coming back.  I have a body fat monitor that says I dropped almost a whole percentage point this week (43.9% to now 43% even)- which is AWESOME.  I'm totally ok with muscle replacing fat, so I'm going to take solace in that.

My eating was pretty good.  I stuck to my calorie goal all but one day.  I had corned beef on St. Patty's, which was a much higher fat meal than I usually let myself have- but I had reasonable portions and stayed within my calories. I had one day that I went over pretty badly (like, 500 cals bad), but I did a workout that day PLUS I was out with a friend (there were chips and salsa on the table.  A force against which I am apparently powerless.) and we walked a couple of miles while we were hanging out, so it could've been worse.  That same day I caved and bought an ice cream, but ate less than half before I threw it out (I guess I realized what I was doing)- so I'm calling that a win as well.

I was totally on track with my exercise this week.  I did 6 days of hardcore exercise (an average off 800 calories burned, woot!).  I'm getting back into lifting weights, which I used to looove when i was younger (and, you know, a 'real' athlete), and I'm finding that I looooove it still.  I'm considering getting a trainer just to refresh myself on proper form and everything, we shall see on that.  I can already see a little bit of muscle gain, and I'm pretty excited about it.

I also had kind of an emotional win as well (two counting the ice cream, lol).  For the past couple of years I've gotten nervous when going places with friends where we would be on foot a lot.  I would get tired, or achy, and almost always sweaty, and otherwise just be mortified and hurting and miserable the whole time.  This time?  We walked about 2 miles- ON THE SAND- and I was fine.  Like, completely fine.  And it was AWESOME.  I never once got out of breath or embarrassed at all.  And I remembered a little about what I used to be like.  I missed me, and I'm thrilled to be coming back...

Monday, March 12, 2012

Weigh-in Day

Today's weight: 269.8

Holy crap!!!  That's 5 lbs!!  Five!?!  I almost never have weeks like that thanks to my PCOS- and I'm a little surprised by it- but hell, I will absolutely take it!!  Waa-hoo!

Also, I am now officially back to the weight I was at at my prior 'low' of 269.8 that happened right before I went to a family wedding in October (before HURTLING myself off the wagon and towards the dessert tray).  So any weight from here on out is 'real' loss.  As opposed to 'weight I'm re-losing and getting down on myself for for regaining' loss.

My next mini goal:  265- I weighed this while I was working as a farm hand.  Full days of manual labor will peel a little excess fat off you... I can't imagine what I'd have weighed working there if I had been on my Metformin at the time (aka a Doctor said, "OH, symptoms, not just lazy and fat."  Grr.).

My next milestone goal:  250- Not only is it a nice, round number, it is also the weight at which you no longer need 'extra safety rigging' and the rock climbing gym.  And I have a Groupon just BURNING a hole in my pocket (inbox?) that I'm dying to use!

Sunday, March 11, 2012

XL Baby!!!

Extra Large Baby!!!  

That's SINGLE X.  Not XXL.  XL.  Top and bottom.
And for the record, the jacket is Columbia Sportswear (aka their XL is an 'athletic' XL.  Read: 16-18, not 18-20!  The bottom's a 'regular XL, but I have huge muscly thighs, and I'm totally cool with that- something has to lug all this fabulousness over those hills!)! 

Woo hoo!!!

I am so fucking excited!  I bought this a couple months ago in anticipation of fitting in it by the spring hiking season (it's wicking and breathable and all that jazz).  And I DOOOOOO!!!  

Oh, I'm so excited.  I'ts really hard to find 'legit' outdoor gear in extended sizes- I'm almost there!  I just want to be able to wear xl sportsgear by my trip in August (large would be just fine, too... just sayin'.).


Tomorrow is official weigh-in day.  I'm not holding my breath, but the mid-week 'unofficial' check said I *should* be on track for another three lb week (which is good, because that's what I aim for).  Here's hoping!!

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Oops- Forgot to Post My Monday Weigh-in!

I was down 3.2 this week!

I weighed in at 274.8 on Monday morning.  w00t!

Yes, I'm up from where I hit the 260's last October... and I do still kick myself for that, letting myself put so much of that back on- but I'm on the right track again.

Here's hoping I can keep it up!

Friday, March 2, 2012

Cheat Meal

I had a cheat meal today (Wendy's, I've wanted it all week and held off this long, so that's a win in itself)...

...and I'm only over 36 calories for the day... complete with Frosty.

AND- still under 1500 (1482, to be exact)!!!

Win bitchessss!