So, unofficially it's 244.8... but it was just now. Wrong day wrong time, whatever... ballpark is better then nothing.
I'm having a lot of mental drama lately. Living with my parents is, unfortunately, making me feel like I'm a teenager again... back in the headspace from then.
Mucho no bueno.
I had a great talk with the boy about it today, I feel a little better. I'm really looking for a therapist in the area (but my insurance sucks and there are few providers with ED experience in the first place...).
Also, someone has been harassing me to get a bikini. I love that he loves me the way I am... and I'm trying to get there, too.
So, here's my first challenge:
How to get a bikini body (for me):
1- buy bikini
2- hyperventilate slightly*
3- put bikini on
How to share that bikini body (in my case):
1- repeat bikini body steps
2- panic a little*
3- look in a mirror
4- rearrange a few things
5- have boyfriend say encouraging things*
6- hand over the camera
7- take a picture
8- select a picture
9- upload picture
10- hit post (whilst hyperventilating*)
**these steps optional
So there's that...